Seriously crushin

Ok, I tried to play it cool this week. SS and I had a great date last Saturday. I had to resist not calling the next day. I really wanted to talk to her. Monday she sends me a nice email. It was great to get to know you and all that. I replied. I didn't hear back. I waited a little more. I gave a call last night. I didn't hear back. I thought I blew it.

She called today.

I'm seriously crushin.

Holy Cow

I just met the most amazing person this weekend. For now I will call her SS. Saturday was our first date. She's super sweet. It's been a while since I've met another person I click with. Things are new to be sure, but we spent almost 7 hours gabbing and drinking and gabbing about everything from religion to star wars. She was very forgiving of my half baked theories and occasional factual slip ups which helps a LOT. Throughout the night I kind of had to pinch myself. Here I was sitting across from this very beautiful woman and we weren't bored with each other. Conversation was easy and consistent. I've been out on a few dates now and they were just painful to sit through. So boring. Chemistry counts for a lot. We seemed to have it. Now comes the very fragile period of any relationship... The first tentative steps. I really wanted to call her last night. But I didn't. I don't want to come on too strong. Just need to relax :)

Hopefully I'll be writing more about here in the future.

Wow what a year.

Sometimes things just have a way of happening. In clusters. They
irrevocably change the course of your life. It happens to all of us
and after having roughly 3 years of an enjoyably stable existance it
seems my turn is up. The beginning of the year brought the demise of
my relationship with the beck (which I will finally go into detail
about in another post) then I jumped off of the green tea express,
last week my apartment was broken into at the same time an old ex came
back into my life to stir up all the old feelings. I guess you could
say I'm starting over again on many different levels.

Of all that stuff though, the thing that bums me out the most is the
loss of the green tea express. A big chunk of people that have been in
my life for the last three years are now gone. I have other friends
yes, but a couple of those cats were special to me even if I didn't
show it.

There have been other periods in my life where I've lost whole groups
of people that I was tight with. Practically my entire college crew
and that was a super tight group. Things don't seem to roll off as
easy as they once did.

Linda linda

Boy falls in love with girl. Boy looses girl. Boy finds girl again.

Last Monday I had dinner with someone I never really thought I'd
connect with again. Linda is someone who embodies most of the things
I'm looking for in someone. She's increadibly bright and down to
earth. I intuitively get where she's coming from. Buuuut. She didn't
feel the same way of course. Even now she will dismiss it, "Well, we
had some things in common."

She is going through a tough time right now. Roomate trouble. Typical
in New York.

SHE: I don't know. He (roomie) has some real problems. He's
compulsively lying.

ME: And it's not like you're landlord will distinguish between you and
him with the unpaid half of the rent.

SHE: I have about a month to figure it all out.

ME: You know, you once gave me a bit of advice. You know, when we
were going through all that stuff back then. You said, "The world has
a way of giving you what you need."

SHE: I said that?

ME: yeah.

SHE: What a load of hooey.

I've thought about Linda a lot over the years. Rebecca actually felt
threatened by her. Everytime I went back to Philly ahe thought I'd be
secretely meeting with her. Indeed I have sort of romanticized Linda.
But seeing her that night. I realized my feelings have changed. Not in
a bad way, I mean I'd still jump at the opportunity to be with her.
But I think I've finally reached the point where my passion isn't
making me resentful. I think we can finally be friends.

more sillyness

DR. HORRIBLE

this is just the best!!

http://www.drhorrible.com/

I wish

I wish I could control my emotions.
I wish I could recognize when I'm becoming irrational.
I wish I didn't take it out on my friends.

My sister could tell me when I was getting out of hand before I'd get too far but she's gone now. Rebecca was a solid base for me to talk to but now I'm single.